I was really doing well until Sunday, when Cupid took over my brain and made me eat every piece of chocolate in sight. Ate out about 6 meals in a row, including the donut shop Sunday morning, Texas Roadhouse at lunch and Carino's for dinner. Of course I didn't do a bit of exercise to make up for any of this. (I'm not really blaming Cupid. That would be silly.)
So let's diagnose the problem, shall we? Problem #1 is that I really enjoy eating. #2, I eat for just about every occasion--when I'm happy, sad, worried, stressed, celebrating or bored. #3 is that I obviously lack self-discipline. Once again I am convicted that something in my perspective has to change. But what? Here's where I'm feeling a little radical....
I realized late last night that today is Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent. We Restoration folks don't generally observe the season of Lent. But when I have decided to sacrifice something in order to listen to God, I always feel blessed by the experience. So I'm considering giving up desserts/candy/sweets for Lent. This is so very drastic, especially as the next two weeks are going to be EXTREMELY crazy and stressful. (Our movers arrive in a week.) So drastic that it makes me not want to do it. 40 days without sugar. That's just ridiculous! The first step will be remembering not to put it in my mouth. (That is much harder than it sounds!) I considered including Diet Coke, but that would make me grumpy and the last thing my family needs is a grumpy mom on top of moving!
So here goes! I told you I wanted to try some experiments this year! I'm feeling kinda shaky just writing, because pink foil Reese's peanut butter hearts are calling to me from the kitchen even now!
Truly, Lord, You gave up ALL food for 40 days and lived to tell about it, so I know I can give up sugar for this season and find JOY in it! My deepest desire is to be in such close communication with You that I can hear You over all the other "voices" in my life. I want to hear what You have to say to me. I want to find complete security in You. I want to know Your will for me and my family, and I know You want me to know it. But You have called me to calm myself so that I can hear you. What a small sacrifice it is to give up sugar--something that doesn't benefit me in any way (except emotionally, but I'm not sure that is a bit healthy!) Fill my heart with sweeter things in the next 40 days. I want to be prepared for whatever You have for me. You must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less!
Jana, I'm really thankful to be on this journey with you. You encourage me and inspire me, even as I wallow in failure (on the scale anyway)! I can't wait to hear about your Wednesday weigh-in. I hope it's better than mine!
Thoughts about the book tomorrow, I hope!
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