I weighed. xx9.6. You didn't really think I was going to put my actual weight on the worldwide web, did you? Jana, will you join me and post your current weight, using our happy little xxx.x formula, of course! My goal is to lose 20/20 in 2010. 20 pounds, then 20 more pounds. That would take me back almost to the healthy weight of 15 years ago.
In cleaning out things for our move, I uncovered a box of old pictures the other night. I was mesmerized as I looked at myself 15-20 years ago. I looked great! I wore sleeveless shirts and even shorts, and they actually looked good! But I was also in some very good habits. I worked out every day on my way home from work. I ate very light--Lean Cuisine for lunch and a baked potato for supper most days. I didn't keep snacks around me. Of course, I don't remember ever feeling skinny, but the pictures are REAL!
My husband loves me unconditionally, praise God! I have a great life and I'm okay with myself. My desire is really to honor God with my body, not just to get skinny. When young women ask me for advice about life-stuff, I often tell them this: When you lay in your bed at night and it's just you and God, you know what is best. And the bottom line is, I know I am not living a disciplined life. Yes, I enjoy food and I think God made it for us to enjoy. But I'm pretty sure it would be pleasing to God for me to gain a little control of HOW MUCH food I put in my mouth each day. So...with that in mind...
Jana says her biggest challenge is the hour between getting home and supper. I'm afraid mine spans the whole day, but my very worst time is after the kids go to bed. I KNOW I should just be done with food. I'm never actually hungry then, but my darling husband and I have found really unhealthy ways of expressing love to each other. So if I'm working on a project, he'll bring me a little cup of m&m's or a bowl of ice cream. And if I want m&m's or a little ice cream, I'll always make one for him too! So we "serve each other" by stuffing ourselves with empty calories just before we go to bed.
I know, that's just awful! So, I guess since I've written it down for all the world to know our terrible secret, it's time to change that habit. I'd start today, but tonight I'm going out for a friend's birthday--movie and dessert after... So, tomorrow I will begin a commitment to quit eating after 7:30 or whenever we finish supper. I'll have to find other ways to bless my husband!
That's Baby Step #1! How about you, Jana?
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